The Game, Honor And Respect For Yourself

There's a saying in the streets, "The game was made to be bought and sold."  There's a lot of sayings in the streets.  The streets where I come from they tell you you aren't leaving unless it's in a body bag.

I've bought and sold the game.  I've been bought and sold in the game.

The game is lame.

It's let me see how I can get over on you so I can score for myself.  It's let me see how I can trick you to get what I want.  It's let me see just how dumb you  might be so I can use you up and toss you away.

Give me $5 I'll go get her for you.

Yeah, whatever.

They are still out there right this second playing the game, some of the same players I used to know.  Same dope boys on the same corners selling the same stuff thinking they are better than everyone else.

Sex is not love, it can be bought, it has a price, just depends on what they are charging.

Others play the game too, same game, different details.

I'm not her anymore and I won't compromise who I am for anyone, no matter how charming, how handsome or what kind of smooth game he thinks he's talking.

I'm much  more special than that.

I'm freakin smarter than that.

What I bring to the table is more special than that.

I married my husband because I wasn't going to just lay up with someone.  He'll tell you I made him marry me.  LOL.  Well, I did.  

He showed up on my doorstep two years after I left the streets, said he had no where to go, he loved me and could he stay with me.  I had his butt at the courthouse in no time, because there are a lot of things I have done in this lifetime, but one of them will never be displeasing my Father.

I think back to that time, not knowing the God I know today, not knowing all the things I've learned and how nothing can separate me from His love.

I'm here to tell you I'm still not going to lay up with someone.

You do what you want to do but not this girl.

I bring a lot to the table, I'm worth investing time in, I'm worth being chased and pursued and loved.

If all you came for was to get laid, you were totally wasting your time with me in the first place.  I quit playing with boys when I left the streets.

I want a man.

A man who has his own, a man whose got goals and a heart for God.  A man doing more than trying to please himself.

I can only speak from my own perspective and experience so don't get it twisted.

I'm not judging anybody it's just not for me.

I'm not perfect or even claiming to be, but I do have self control and I want more from life.

It still makes me cringe to know my own downfalls.

Anyone that knows me knows there is no shame in my game, I'm just as human as the next person, I want love too.

Sex is not love.

Love is an investment, honor, respect, friendship set on fire.

If you only made him chase you to the bedroom, you cheated yourself.

My Daddy has been romancing me since the beginning of the year, His love is so awesome and amazing, no man could even come close:  a million men couldn't come close.

I am a precious and cherished daughter.  I'm too valuable to be handing myself out to everyone that comes along, or just anyone that comes along.  I have purpose and destiny.  I have things to do, places to see, miracles to witness and a love affair to have with my Father.

It's better than any love affair I've ever had.

He honors me.  He pursues me to the deepest darkest places of my life.  He reminds me I am enough, I am too valuable to give myself to someone He didn't send.  I am so much more than sex.

When there's no love attached to it it's highly overrated and fake.  When there's fake love attached to it, it's betrayal.

I've learned to respect myself, to honor myself, to bask in my Father's love.

I've learned to be with someone and to be alone.

I've learned to honor others and share my life's story with them.

I've learned to celebrate great victories over the past.

I've learned to be friends with other women and build them up rather than tearing them down.

I've learned so much, even in the last year.

I'd rather be alone and bask in my Father's love than waste a second on someone who is only pursuing me so they can have someone to sleep with.

I am so much more.

I want a man that's so much more.

I can stand alone or I can be matched, but I will not just give the best parts of myself away to anyone that comes along singing love songs.

I'd rather spend the rest of my life doing what I do and hanging out with my Daddy, alone, if that's what He has for me, than some half ass guy who claims he loves me.

You can't trick me because I'm grown.

You can take what I've given you and throw it away but that's on you.  Still didn't give you the everything and especially not the best parts.

The game is lame, love honors and when you respect yourself, you aren't willing to fall for the game or someone who has no intention of honoring you , knowing they are just trying to get what they want.

Sex is not love, you can sell it, you can buy it, you can destroy your life and your heart with it.

It's not worth it.

There's so much more to life than that.