Tough World

     Most of us weren't born rich, so there's a struggle in and of itself.  

    Not only do you have to survive from day to day, doing what needs to be done to live your life, you have to put up with all these assholes that just don't get it.

    Most people are so unhappy they want you to be just like them.  They are full of negativity, can never see the good in anything and they have advice for everyone, although their lives look like train wrecks.

    People who can't stand themselves can't stand you and how dare you look happy or do anything to make your life better!  Who do you think you are?

    This is where I am today.

    Social media is a nightmare and they've kicked me off so often, I just don't care anymore.  Those people could very well be the same people reporting me and getting me in trouble with the platform.

    Life used to be simpler, we had a pre-paid phone, we lived in a tent in the woods, it was not miserable the entire time.  Hell, I didn't have a phone half the time.  Randy  had six or seven phone numbers for me once.  I miss him, he's always on my mind.

    I don't watch tv, per say, Ridiculousness, while I'm on the stair climber.  I haven't watched the news in over 40 years.  I hate to be lied to, because the truth would be easier to stomach.  Negativity breeds negativity, so no news for me thanks.

    I don't need to be in the know about how horrible the world is.  I have a lot of things I'm working on in my own world and my world doesn't look like that.  

    Anyway, we all know it's a tough world.  

    Your perspective about that world is everything.

    I don't let people bully me, I say what I mean and mean what I say, I have untreated mental illness, so you really have to know me and be around me a good bit of the time, to know just how crazy I am.

    I love my life, it's my happy place and I get to choose what that looks like.  No one else gets to tell me what my life is supposed to be.

    Like I said I'm stepping away from social media and looking at other things.  Yesterday, I sat and read a few gardening books, because I'm planning to garden starting in the spring.  I have containers and seeds, with more seeds on the way.  I want to grow my own food, to save us money on produce and to grow enough to market what we can't eat.  

    In highschool, I was part of the FFA, worked for a couple of flower shops and a nursery when I graduated.  

    I bet there are a lot of people that don't remember and or know that about me.

    All the books, articles, studies show that gardening is good for you physically and mentally.  I need that in my life.  I have one plant, it's in my office, it's the same age as the dog, 5 years old.  When my cousin gave it to me, I thought it had died.  It's been transplanted 5 different times and today looks better than it ever has and I didn't put it out over the summer.

    My friend told me about giving it epsom salt.  

    I'm learning everything I can right this second and spent the afternoon watching people talk about their small sustainable farms that make upwards of $150,000 a year, without unnecessary equipment.  I have so many side hustle failures, I'd like something to go my way.  I know how to grow things, I always have.  Space is an issue.

    There's only asphalt where I live and I don't want to have to leave my garden behind if I do in fact decide to move.

    Container gardens need a little more attention, but it's something I'm investing my time in either way and I have better luck with containers.  I want to teach the grand children how to grow food, it's important.  

    Change is necessary and I'm making good changes.

    For instance it's 2:28 a.m. and I just got back from walking the dog 1942 steps just because we were up.  Nothing out of the ordinary for me, we're liable to walk at any given hour or minute.  It has to be done.

    What do you do in a tough world?  You unplug and begin softening it.  You start learning about gardens and planning to have one.  You start doing other things rather than sitting in front of a computer screen.  

    My world is tough without all the outside interference.

    I think I do pretty well, I'm sure there are those who would tell you otherwise, but the key is as long as I think I'm doing well, then I'm doing well.  The measurement of how well that should be is impossible to reach.

    I'm reorganizing everything about my life, to start the new chapter.  Planning a garden and growing my own food is a great part of my health journey.  I'm up for the challenge.

    I want to start a family tradition and this is going to be that tradition.  It's hard work but the pay off is extraordinary.  The world needs more farmers, more people who care about growing food and teaching others how to do it.  We've got to stop depending on others for our sustenance.

    I don't paint and or write all the time, I wish I did, it would make my life so much easier.  I have to find things to keep my hands and my mind busy.

    I'm excited as always, to be doing something new and I plan on it becoming a lifestyle for us.  We have to eat, growing food will take care of that.