Saturday, November 7, 2020

When The Paranoia Sets In

    I live at my job.  I have lived there going on 7 years in March.  It's a very strange arrangement, to say the least.
    In the beginning I had a terrible boss.  I caught her out right lying to me, so I never believed anything she said.  She hassled me and harrassed me through phone calls and emails.  She never did it to my face so I could address and over time she mentally and emotionally jacked me up, non stop.  I even went to the shrink a couple of times to make sure I wasn't coming unglued or something.
    I remember sitting in my office looking at the traffic going by on the boulevard, thinking I should just run out there.
    I finally went and reported her.  I went to the state agency as well.  I still have a lawsuit if I want one.
    Anyway, they pull me into a meeting with the Vice President and Human Resources and I tell them the problems I've been having with this manager. I am a broken and wounded person in this meeting.  I can't control my emotions.  I don't trust them, I feel like they are out to get me.  This was the first five years, looking around, feeling like I should be packing and looking for a new job.
    She made me feel like I wasn't going to be allowed to stay from the moment I stepped into the apartment.
    This, in case you don't know messed me up in a way I still can't rid of when they start asking me questions.
    After being cussed out on my day off, more than once, for over a year, I started recording the phone conversations.  
    I got endlessly chewed out and insulted, told to shut up, not given the opportunity to even talk.
    I got chewed out and insulted back and forth through emails.
    She never did it to my face, always in that sly sneaky way that made me have panic attacks and absolute emotional break downs.
    I still suffer from a great deal of that emotion today.
    I started keeping emails too.  Back and forth not nice emails full of insults.
    I recorded the meeting with them and they did not like that.
    They pulled me into a meeting with her and she denied everything.  I also recorded that meeting as well.  
    Then I pulled the speaker out, and simply said, "This is how she manages me." and played the recordings.  She wanted to crawl underneath that table and looked absolutely horrified.
    I never spoke to her again after that meeting.  She left some lame ass voice mails but I never listened to them seriously, I only recorded them, for the record.
    They did NOT send anyone to paint my apartment and or carpet it.  I gave them the estimates.
    I received an email from his saying when I was ready.  I told her I'd moved everything but the futniture out of the house.  That was two years ago and some of that stuff is still in boxes today, for the simple fact I always feel like I'm going to have to leave.
    The damage has been done.
    I can't help it.  I have huge emotional turmoil when I start hearing from coporate about this job.
    My facility is the biggest one they have, 418 units.  It's been here 51 years.  My people are needy and do NOT follow instructions.
    One of my tenants has been here since the place opened and there were only two buildings to begin with.  There are 5 now.  They have NOT been taking of my place the entire time I've been here.  I've sent in estimate after estimate to the point people won't show up to give me estimates anymore.  Ive gotten cameras, a new parking lot, new roofs, butterfly bushes the landscaper killed and a sign that's so cheap it's faded more than the 20 year old one that came down.
    The place is downright embarrasing and I live here.
    They gave me another boss, the end of that year, same as they just did again.
    Apparantly, if you are anybody but me in this company you can keep your job for years on end and not do shit.  
    I just got a new boss and that kicked in all the "I'm gonna lose my damn job" feelings again.
    They came over to audit me for the first real time in all these years and I spent 72 hours killing myself to make sure the place was perfectly swept and lit.  What they were hoping was to catch me stealing storage from them.  They were hoping they would find units with stuff in them, not accounted for.  Not ever happening people, just stop.
    She revealed she's a snake in the grass as soon as she arrived in my office by tricking me into giving her the password to my wifi.  My daughter in law immediately changed the password as soon as they walked out of my office.  I can be nice and do this thing, but I know not to trust her, not to get close to her, not to tell her anything she doesn't need to know.
    I missed 5 locks.  It's not hard to do, 418 units, could have meant to have them cut in the past and forgot, just keep missing them along the way with all the other stuff that gets done.  She came to the office asking me if I wanted to go with her while they cut them, I told her no, go ahead, I'm doing this.
    The unit that did have stuff in it, the girl left, she had money, she had two units, they've been gone for quite some time and that was the only one.  People leave stuff all the time.  It doesn't have to be crappy stuff.  Hell, I've got a china cabinet as big as my entertainment center that someone left.  It's from the 60's curved wood front, cabinet lights up.  Took us over 2 hours to move them, the two of us.
    I'm not guilty of anything so why should I jump up and run along behind them like they are going to find something?  I keep pristine records, I bank more money every year I work here, I handle the business the way I was taught.
    I'm excited I won't have to handle their money anymore, my place can and will make more money if you take my heart out of the transaction.  Let them have that headache.  They are going to find out it's more work than they at first imagined and it's a huge pain in the ass.  My people are needy and are going to start blowing up their phones for months on ends.  Good for them.  I'm glad they want that headache.
    There is plenty of stuff to be done without having to handle the money.  There are people that need to be met up with, units that need to be swept and secured, light bulbs that have to be in working order, at my place, because I have electricity in my units.  I have bands and businesses here.
    If they think they are going to be able to fire me, they have lost their minds.
    I will request a meeting with the A brothers immediately.  Their attorneys know my attorneys and their attorneys don't want to hear from my attorneys.  Period.
    I've done my job to the best of my ability with little to zero real supervision.  I'm still here.
    The place has been struggling for two years, I've gotten tons of repeat business over that time and banked more money every year I've been here.  You can't fire an employee you've screwed with that does their job.
    I'm smarter than the average bear and believe in the power of the pen.
    I shot an email to the vice president of the company, tagging everyone else, telling them how excited I am about not having the responsiblity of taking payments.  Explained how that moves me into PR work and how I'm a great PR person.  I talk to everybody, I dress nice and I never meet a stranger.  Plus, there are other things that need to be taken care of besides the money, especially at my place.
    I closed the email with "As always willing to do anything that needs to be done to better the company and continue to be an asset.
    LOL.
    No one said a word back.
    Paper trail.
    I put the fact that I work for them and have no plans of leaving right back in their laps.  If they were planning to get rid of me, they are going to have to be real creative and or pay me to go away.  That's all there is to it.
    All of my communications with them are in writing, show me in the light of a willing and able employee.
    It's going to get interesting before it's over with.
    My friend JP, that's what we'll call him, popped in, while the boss and assistant were here.  He's my buddy, charming, is the tenant who has been there the entire time.  He knows more about their place than they do, because he's been there.  He talked me up, of course, but before he left they were just about taking their panties off for him and he's got a lunch date with the boss and her mother today at a local restaurant they all know one another from.
    This is what is going to happen.  She's goiing to go in there and get comfortable and she's going to tell him absolutely everything they have going on and he's going to get the inside line on what they hae plans on doing with me.
    He's going to let her talk.
    M is a big little town, if you piss off the wrong people, your business ventures can virtually dry up overnight and the A's own a shit ton of realty here, a lot of it sitting empty anyway, they can't afford to take too many more hits on their 25 million a year company.  200 thousand of that comes out of my place.  They could probably bring it up another 50 grand without me having to participate in money transactions and people's sob stories.
    They're setting it up for the money to go to a PO Box and or through the internet.  It won't even come to my office anymore.  I'm cool with that.
    I get new software Monday.
    It's a fire at will state, but you can't fire an employee who can sue you.  I have tattoos, they can't fire me for them, they hired me with them.  I showed up wearing shorts a great deal of the time, because the work is hot and dirty.  I dress nothing but business casual now.  I was dressed better than the boss and her assistant the other day.
    I have a tatoo on my face that has always been there, she though I had marked my face with my pen.  LOL.
    I'm not going without a fight.
    I'm not leaving until they pay me to.
    They gave my friend ten days to get out, one day after she had a car accident and broke her back.  She had to move in those ten days, period.
    They haven't figured out what they are going to do with me, yet.  I outlined what my job now looks like to them and told them how excited I am for that opportunity.  I've gone rogue.  
    Oh how I wish I could be a fly on the wall for that conversation and I so hope she doesn't stand him up.  The universe is conspiring to help me and they loved the fact they didn't have to wear a mask in the restaurant.  
    We shall see, yes, we shall see.
    
    
    
    
    
   

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